Do you ever have one of those days when you don’t feel like anything is going as you had planned? Or you’re just not in the mood for it? You have all of these wonderful plans in your head. But not anymore – today, the very thought of those plans ruins your day. I had one of those days yesterday. It drives K nuts – he is always trying to make it better and when nothing does he just hugs me. Usually when I have one of those days there is something that has set it off. Waking up too early, a cancelled plan, a disagreement. Lately I have been having these a lot. Something will set me into a tisy and the day falls apart. I am angry at the drop of a hat. I haven’t wanted to see or even talk to certain people. I feel that so many things and people are going in different directions and I just can’t get a handle on all of them. I have tried, but I just feel as though I need to find my own way. I just don’t know which way to start…
I can totally relate – I always feel like there are people in my life moving in directions that feel like “away”. Sounds like you need some time to yourself. I know when I get like that about people, I have to avoid them long enough that I end up missing them. Then when I see them again, I remember all the things I liked about spending time with them (if this is the kind of thing you’re talking about).
I was reminded of something at work this week: you can’t change how other people are; you can only change how you react and act toward them. Do what you need to do for yourself.